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my soul screams.





taste of ecstacy. unforbidden once.






exonerated from the study world.


liberated to my social life.



i had 2whole days, cheers to the next 2weeks of venom, dahlink.

one weeeeek has passed again,

i have so many things to say yet my brain is bubbling and frothing.
my lungs released air to let me speaaak but i just can't put my tongue to my teeth.
once again, the fear strikes through me. i can't stem it at its bud.

i can't, i can't,i can't.

1. have to revise througgh chem AGAIN, -15days or so.
2. do bio chapter 2&7-10days or so.
3. practice my ADDITIONAL&e math :( -17days or so.

the ecstacy that will run through my veins after MYE is irreplacable,
i need the opportunity to loosenn up, so for now i should just push myself.

I WILL,I WILL,I WILL try.

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sometimes you pine for something so hard,
and the results you're awaiting for procastinates.
although when it comes, the mirth in you will never be replaced.
slowly, this feeling dawns in you that you wanna be the BEST of the BEST.
so you pray and pray, but then despitee all that.
you still don't achieve what you aimed for, its like a cold blade
slitting through your pulpitating heart and blood rushes to every inch of your body.

-- i should'nt be complaining, i would'nt be complaining. but yet i am. cos to be honest im not satisfied with 18th posistion :( out of the 280students who took part in b div :(
i just am not, RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWRR! :(

on the other hand, my 2.4(: i hit my target babeh, 16solid minutes. i dont care what others think, for me its a record breaking timing and im so freaking happy! (:
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riiiighht, i should hit the sacs.




NIGGGGGGGGGGHT and LOVES (:

happy birthday sweetie*(:

-i've collaged all the photos of us together, cos i didnt wanna let my compuuter screw on me after i upload our gazillion photos, haha! anyway, im gladd you had fun yestd. and i'm sure with us around yoou always will okay? because ILOVEYOU. and you know that too. there are super lotsa things you've helped mee with, and im glad you've always been there, i'll always be here for yoou too. just remind yourself, that saturday is your secret getaway that no-one else shares? cos, even when i leave act3 i'm always a call away! (: unless im stuudying ugh :( i dont know if i'll ever make you cupcakes again but the day was a blaast for you im guessing so yay!


maya, this has to be in tamil, or the sarcasm won't be there_
foursome ah? aval maail yenaku antha varupu still irukirathu, avalodai "love" messages
super super demnnn faaaaake la. addddddddathuu thuuuu! okay wtv HAHAHA.



anyway. hope all your wishes and dreams come through dearest (:




XOXO.

the guardian angel!

the pinnacle of 40hours of training : 12th april 11.20 am at acs baker theatre.
infront of 3secondary school and 4judges.
the laborious feat of BECOMING our characters realistically, sacrificing time, getting drilled by GEE.fang, pushing&carrying the props to the room. the everything we did. OVER, KAPOOSH.(this word is in the dictonary i heard) wow. i can't express how i feel entirely.
not that i lack the vocabulary but more like if i tried it would be an insult to my jumbled up hormones. gosh, from the















































"you&Bubbles were excellent",
"top-notch-acting dear",
" you ended the show&walked out in character", "
be proud of your cast and yourself "
-im gathering we brought pride and glamour to unity, i hope atleast. no pretense(In that)

deep down inside, my heart pinnes for the gold but i forsee that would only be achieved if we were 200% IN CHARACTER AND WHAATNOT. yet again, i think i should'nt expect the best out of everything because as a cast we were aiming for silver. to be very candid about the whole performance, i hardly felt that we were at the silver-ish standard. we were dangling impotently at the bronze level to my extreme dispair. there was something about the performance that didn't kick the soil into the judges eyes and tell them straight to their faces, "WE DESERVE IT!"
personallly, i didn't put up the version i had in my head. my tears fell in minimal, my emotions were there, but not at optimum. which is precisely why, i bursts out in tears after the performance. my heart was tingling in sheer terror.

kudos to the entire cast for trying their best, and pulling off whatever we could. no matter what the results, i say this heartfully that we will get what we deserve (: i loveyou all. and it'll always be extreme gratification when im with yoou ppl (: (inclusive of b.s crw)

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god, 14days to MYE. now i should say bye to the world and study.


righhtttt,

i should'nt be complaining i should just put in my effort(:


i'm gonna somehow only fail 2 subjects and get b3 and above for the rest! (:


somehow, let me sound gay its fine.






XOXO ME!*



-maya (: im sorry.
-boooon zhong, sorry too! be happy. we loveyou!

my entire post just shut down and screwed up, so pardon my temper.
i was indulged in the whole heart-warming post when KABHAAM, virus loves me&attacks this yellow square computer and thus this poor girl starts over. / amen.


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now lets all say, TAAHIRA ROCKS *(:









UNITY DEBATE TEAM IS THE EPITOME OF THE PILLAR OF PERSERVERANCE.
that i can solemnly promise upon. we strived and struggled through the 3prelimenary rounds clashing against "top" schools but still emerging with a score discriminant of 2.5.9 and 2.1.2, winning the laast round of course. there is no need to be melancholical we have shown tan siew piang, pearlyn lim, jessica and even pix that we actually are the best (: we are what we wanted to be and theres no point being intimidated by other schools cos we've proven ourselves maybe not to the extent where they're scared on hearing my name but still we know that we put up an extremely good fight. we can keep our heads high and walk down the street cos we're the saviour of the broken. we'll enter JGs again in 2008 and crash the quaters baby!(:

the 3 of us (including jasyree) we are the debaters, that no one else can copy. the original debaters with
1.eloquence.
2. persuasiveness.
3. attitude/style that the world can't adopt.

i love love love love love love love love the foursome for always being there for each other, in extreme befuddlement, happiness and whatnot. we were always there for each other and thats what gave us the strength to pull through. we know it ourselves that we are irreplacable. without ina, it'll be a GYNORMOUS difference, but baby we'll make it the 3 of us FIZA.JAYS AND TAAHIRA *


for the main team: AMALINA.FIZA.TAAHIRAA.JAYSREE















-thank you for always always being there for me, always understanding the chaos in my head. i love the way we could always relate to each other and be with each other for like 7hours in a row. the late late nights and the everything we did (: maaan, i love you girls.

for the supporters : KAAVITAA.JAREDD! JEROME.KOMATHI.BEGUM.CELESTINE.VIVIEN.GAYATHRI.MINDY.SHAALINI.
-i would have never pulled through the first round without you people, thats official. the huggs and the endless encouragements, i would never forget. i love you for always waiting shaking your head to our opponents and showering me in compliments even if you people were dozing off then. i will never forget how much you'll sarcrificed in coming down all the way and to support me. ilove you all much and much more.

p.s -kavita, you rock my world. you walked me home every single night though you were dying. you're on of the b.BOMB.f ever. i super love you please and owe you 100000000000 cokecans.
















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reality check now.

14days to SYF performance.
29days to MYE.
33days to act3performance.
31days to sec3 camp.
42days to TAAHIRA's SPECIAL DAY ((:

2days to his birthday. oops


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i haave potential i can do it, i just have to push myself. very hard very very hard.
intense mugging would kick the problem right for the start. i need to fuel the mommentum.
achieving 4as this MYE isnt going to be like an easy feat but i did it last year. 5as and it worked out well. this combination is what i yearned for last year and i got into it. which shows, the ability is there. so taahira is gonna push her ass foward and sustain a high A for english, make tamil seize the A1 score. somehow scratch my way through a b3/a2 for Emaths though the subject is excruciatingly painful to deal with since Amath has come to join its company. my sciences are not much of a pain, yet. so i shall try. i will try! maximum 17 points, minimum 13points for L1R4 (: GO ME! (: the urge to bask in the intense felicitaition of 13points is everything i want now. so lets me bid goodbye to my looooong textmessgages, phone calls and tvee shows for the next 30days. and rightt after that i can lust for everything i need&want.


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start of the immortal superwoman

righhht, i thought uploading the pictuures would make me smile a little,
but apparently it didn't (not that we didn't have fun on tues) we did (:
i hope shal's happpy and so is brya *waves frantically at bry the new frienddd.
i haven't been outta the house much, the torture kills me.

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" .. the tears are wet, but they don't fall.
its a hollow feeling, its better if you heal me tonight
we've got one more chance, lets make the greaaaat escape "





*thank yoou noobie bzz and jaredlo for being nice,
but it has nothing to do with like feeling "emo"
its more chowpariya thing.











diva wants to see model! fuckkit.