i managed to get throu 27th&28th = DD and i dunt think the math test was as intricate as i
expected it to be(:

convo btw the loved one and me. most of it was in tamil so this is the direct translationn.

THEnj:
so; did you find out who the spammer was?
THEprincess:
nope. its a longg story (narrates what happens) and shakes head-.
THEnj:
haha. no point trying to fiind out who it is ryte? let the person do whatever
they want, everytime they spam you delete. dunt use vulgarities it just builts up
and makes the spammer happier. understand?
THEprincess:
i didnt reallly curse, it was my ugly and my friends did it okay. the spammer used
such filthyy lang tho. cldnt help it but rage!
THEnj:
whats over's over. you hv to prove yrself and show him/her that you wldnt fall
for their shit. and next time dunt use vulgarities, it reflect badly da.
THEprincess:
haha. okay! i didnt know you went through my blog everyday. too much love
for me eh? (:
THEnj:
scoffs-. hahas. i just read during office time. anws; why dunt you write abt smth that
interest you that you see daily or when you read the papers? i mean yes its yr blog and yr
rants but try to be a different 14yr old babe can?
THEprincess:
HAHAH. okay so you mean smth less bimbotic? (tho im not a bimbo?) i'd do it sometime
soon(: but im 14man im not gna blog like anneh. definatelyNOT!
THEnj:
aiyo. i dunt want you to be like him. give it a try and see okay?
--

and today in just a bus ride for 35mins; the one thing that caught my eyes were families.
since it was a sunday. there were many families consisting of teenagers&toddlers travelling
arnd in buses to eat or smth. most of the teens were scowling and were hooked on to their mp3 or phone while the todddlers were squealing in delight to their parents attention.
the teens were completely ignored. (though its not like they really wanted THAT kinda attention) but still, the parents didnt really talk to em, even if they did. it was mainly
"..what you listening to?" "...wad you wanna eat" or smth along that line? and the teens just
mumbled smth. i was wondering since this is the oppurnity to bond why not ask about sch
in a polite and in a manner yr child will like? but instead all i saw was

1) the teen being yelled at for hurting her eardrums due to the continous flow of music.
2) continual kisses and praises on the younger child and chiding teen for not being like baby.
3) complete ignorance of teen.

when did teens potray sucha a bad picture of themselves? i mean, we're not always
rebelling okay?! we hv BIGhearts to help out in the community and stuff. we are definately
NOT unbothered. and we want to be loved by both family and friends. so parents shld try and understand. instead of jeopadizing the bond btw them by yelling/ignoring their teenage girls/boys.

and i another thing that earnestly irked me was how smarrt children were getting.
despite their extremely chubby cheeks and constant wailing/talking. they are really inquisitive.(: its so awwwwwwwwh. BUT asians are so conservative.(MY MOTHER ESP)

-. i heard so many small kids asking their parents to buy condoms thinking its chocolate.
or asking where babies came from, or just asking where the grass is green not pink?
and many other adorable qns.

__. parents juust brush em off and ask them to grow up so they can get answers.
MOST SAY

1) go into a good secondary school and they'll tell you all this.
2) i tell you when you grow up.
3) start explaining facts to they're cuute babiess(:

HAHA. after today i hv this craving for having loadsa babies when i grow upp(:
but i dunt wanna push it out. = /scaryy. and plus if i became a parent i promise
myself to answer all their cuute questions with honesty despite their age.(:

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i gotta go madrasah and i finallly finished the workk on prophets.


LOVE. much later.
;tttahhirraa.

i wanted t` draw a smiley face on your pacs baby.
and now i dunt. i just wanna run far away.
cos im frigtened nv like before. all those tamil words are haunting me.
its wrong to LOOK; i just realised.
there's always reality bursting into my pretty pretty delusions.
fcukthat.
--

i've got so many demn things on my mind. so much for loving life
and pushing myself to extremeties. UGH. i mean; i dunt wanna overload
myself. cos i wanna take things slowly! (FYI-my fooking speaker spoilt so i
carn calm myself with music. RAHHHHHHHHHHHH) but instead of letting me
choose my pace. things are running at break neck speed. i just had a test today (which
im quite sure i didnt ace) and 2 tests tmr as well. and on friday the horrifying MATH! the whole week which i missed school was the week where tchers taught all the important stufff. and we missseddd it!
UGHHHHHHHHHH! and to top it all i hv dramas&social problems to think abt and i miss teen theatre(:
hahas. and i miss the liberty of gg out on fridayyy cos i was sure i deserved the break after
the long hectic week. but this time despite my 3dates that i was asked; i still carn get outta
the hse cos i needa catch up with science and mathhhhh! -GROANS*
sometimes i reallllly think i might hv bitten off to much to chew = / i just wanna get past this week and get back to having fun on friday nighttss(: i hv alreadyyy planned my friday+weekends next week to be
fun. so all i hv to do now is just breeze past 27&28th jullllyy. and pass the math test(:

--

read the inner and immerse meaning of the poem abt spammer.

countless times we bombarded her and yet all futile.
she seemed too docile with the tinge of innocence to create all that havoc.
half say it isnt her; half says it is.
we conned her all this while, making us look like the meanbitches.
and so much for trying to get the truth and making life in serenity.
its just more messed up and i carn be more bamboozled.
the pieces arent matching and the jigsaw's not done.

--

i've heard so many stories and versions of this ultimate spammer.
and more than my rage i just earnestly wanna know who this person is.
and why she/he loathes shal,mie,komi and the rest so much? and even
if you hv been feeling this hatred for a long time then how come
now you suddenly blow comments. and instead of saying stuff like
"wad the hell are you acting big for.." or smth why are you insulting
us with sucha dirrtyyy filthy lang? its utterly disgusting. can you get a life?
seriously? i didnt like the way you went into explicit details abt hv any form
of oral/normal sex with raj. or him fighting for any of us. cos we love him as a friend
and dunt be immature and try to wreck this okay?

yr frivolous rants arent wanted.
so this is a nice and clear msg for you to add me on msn and explain every bit to me.
cos im repeating myself that i will not throw vulagarities at you untill you explain yrself.
my add is : intense_felicity@hotmail.com if i dunt see you online send me a msg on friendster
and prove to me you're the spammer. and i'll pass you my number
and all the ppl you insulted can conference? i know you're bound to read this.
so stop being a coward and just show yrself.

im realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly pissed off now. really feeling like my whole has crumbled b4 my eyes for the past 30mins where i hv been crying. i hv nv ever cried continously for 30mins like this before. i hv nv feltt like my lungs were squeezing closer and tighter as i weeped. nv felt my eyes hurrt like today. everything's wrong. there has been some blunder somewhere
and im out to fix it.

-
after performance today which was exultance at its peak,
on reaching home, i hope to recieve comfort&smiles from my parents. but instead
im bombarded by qns on why i keep msging ppl and how my bill has crossed the line.
fine. i agree sometimes msging gets outta hand, but instead of letting me apologize
im being chided for watching tvee and practically hanging on the fone? i mean WTF is that
all abt man? and wad more they keep yelling abt me going on with guys im just friends with.
they keep over reacting. they blew me into tears. its all drying up now. but still? i've nv felt
so scared and crushed at the same time. its freaky to be depressed. and i dunt like that
emotion. AT ALL! and when i came online seeking solace i find my blog being spammed by
some random fuckface. how bad can life get in 30mins? RAHHHHHHHHHH!

-

im going to bed to find peace there; those who want to talk to me. call me i guesss?
i might pick uup if im not crying/sleeping.




p.s- i wanna smile like i always do. i wanna be flying high. cos that is me.

this is the last straw. i mean i admitt i have shown hatred to girls/boys i dislike but out
of the so many msges i tagged at least majority wld hv my name in it (taa/taahira). and i
dunt understand what these worthless bunch of losers gotta do by coming over to
by self-proclaimed gorgeous blog and contaminate it with their filth.

--

read and decipher this on yr own. if you're smart enough, you wld read the hidden lines and
basically stop fucking around with my hot friends and me?

you shall burn i bellow.
you shall die i blare.
none of yr remains shall be conspicuous. cos the blood you spurt
shall not spread among the sovereignty. parisimonious behaviour
shall be overthrown by the fervor of the good ppl.
there shall be no bawls and tears;
cos the blood of the bitch is here no more.
there shant be fake smiles or spurious taggs.
spammers with no class and guts shall die i repetatively rage.
i hv achieved what i wannted and im glorious of em' all.
your achievements arent heard, yr screams arent bothered abt.
so puh-lease buzz off?

--

i dunt know how to make this clearer? i have achieved the peak of most 14yrs old. im in 4 productions. im beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiffuuuuuuuuuuuuull and im black(: but so what?
if you were any better than me how come you have no audacity to tagg with yr name?
if you're angry with any of us why disturb my friends? fuck of puh-lease.

i really get so demn bamboozled and extremely frustrated by some ppl in my community.
why must there always be smth wrong when girls and guys talk?

first they'd say "...girls shldnt look at a guy eye to eye with the wrong intention" then when we
dunt; they create some other problem. i mean WTF man?! its so annoying.

read the convt and understand why im so incensed

THEanneh:
i saw a few guys exchanging numbers with some girls aft the camp. i dunno what intention
they were having! so i just wanna get to the bottom of this matter. some of the guys were
from 'zabas' i think and the girls im not sure.

facilitator:
maybe they were just planning to keep in contact? i mean we cannot assume right?

THEanneh:
i agrree, but i dunt want their parents to call me up and say thier child met this
girl/guy during the camp and thats how they fell in love or some rubbish. it'd be a big
'praichanai, and nama tha paliiyai vanganum'

facilitator:
they're young, i think this is common for them.

THEanneh:
i just want to get to the bottom of the maatter. maybe nxt time it shld be a
all boys/girls camp? cos i dunt want their parents to call me!

--
get why im so pissed? this is one of the times when adults keep assuming things.
if this whole "exchanging numbers" thing blows up then im scrrewed big time. i told mum
abt shashir. and shes fine with it. so all i hv to do is cross my fingers. madrasah's in 45mins.
if fatimah chides abt it, im ready with a getback! so which means; i carn meet any of em
for the few weeks cos i hv to be on the "safe side". which means our grp dates postponed to
national day or smth. god knows? i hope they dunt get to mad at me for the postpone. = /

--

im not very nervous abt the whole 'where i belong' production. my character has been given
more depth and you wldnt know how much mirth that injected into me! im kinda sturdy abt
the whole thing. and prehaps more afraid abt my upcoming tests? yeah. i cld say i carn wait
to get back to my teen theatre class(: it make me tonnes more gay(:

= gotta get ready for madrasah now. toodles


-leftlove.

chocolixr outting was fun. didnt really care if the boys cldnt make it, cos we shopped till my calves are still aching man. i was in heels and guess where we girlies were shopping? CAUSEWAY!haha.
sposed to go j8 cos haven been there for years, butt due to curfews and cash we changed our plans and decided t head down to causeway. it wasnt that bad tho cos we were busyy bitching our heads offf like usual prettaye woman wld. everyone of us looked stunning i swear.

clothes update.

SYAfiqah: absolutely beauutifulllll in the capucinno coloured shirt dress which covered all her
fats and gave her this touch of feminity.
mindwee: the simplicity princess. tanktop with shawl and jeans. just simply prettaye.
kavi: so adoraaaable. in her teal mickey mouse top and tight fitting jeans. HOTness.
mee: brown top from BIFC that was tightfitting with skirt and awesome heels(:

hot stuufff. we had our fair share of continous laughter and ample fun taaalking and snapping shots with sya's PDA as well as taking neos. THEY WERE THE BEST(: metro's clothes were pretty cuute too; we tried on a couple b4 the sales lady chased us away cos we werre in giggling fitts. heh. we were done with all our happiness at 630 and we hadda leave cos mum wanted me to get her some stuff. = / ohh and i got a SUPER HOT brown handbag which im so going to flaunt abt(:
looove it. but my savings are partly gone now. sadly.

--

didnt get to catch pirates of the carribean. dying to see orlanda&johnny in action. (p.s; tasha if you hv the tix. i swear i'd love you more than i already to if we go for it) sighs. i hv drama like till 5 tmr and after i hv some dinner to attend. RAH. nxt week is going to be havoc. carn wait.


-leftlove. and extremely exhausted.
blogg tmr or smth.



.im sorry clement btw.

im really starting to abhorre thursdays. i mean;

i settled down at home at like 9 in school uni, with beloved anneh&mummy frigtening me to
the max abt the robber who sposedly creeped into my neighbour's home yestd night, fleeing
with like 5wallets? heh. he was so freaking dumb. i mean; only wallets? he cld hv stole the
jewellery and stuff. wld hv made his seem less cowardice. ugh! anws. im sorry to those ppl
i was sposed to call. i was EXTRREMELY dead tired man! i swear i dunno what literally zapped
the energy outta me. but on the whole, school was unbelievably erratically funn-fied in a way.

--
'kundachi' was being a total racist whore today as well! chocolixr gave her the piece of our mind,
we were so in bitch mode during recess but doubt the wierdo realised we were being bitch-fied
towards her. HEH! but afterr recess the demn d.m had to spoil of rejocing man. he was screamed at us all for assembling at the hall late. RAHHH! i was squeezing jerome's hand and like mad and kept chanting 'fcuk' to kavi cos i was still in my yellow shirt, my fringe was falling over my face, my socks were slipping down my feet due to sweat&my skirrt was too shorrt for his liking! but he didnt catch me thankfully.i wld hv died on the spot.

--
ryte afer recess was pw.
pw was a HUGE guffaw. i swear. as we all know. 2/7 is the description of lameness. and thus the beginning of all the ruckass was when;
a chocolixr member who was annoyed like shit over jerome's racism threw a chess piece at his arm. (note: the chess piece is the key word. it was the soldier FYI) to make him shut up. and jerome wanted revenge and instead of flinging it at the chocolixr member he flung it towards
karine's group. and that was the start of the rubbish mess. karine HAD to tell toh that there was a cat fight going on. which resulted in him hollering at us. we were made to stand of on foot
till the person who started the fight owned up. and since toh's voice was unreasonably loud, everyone was afriad&pretty much alarmed. kavi and me wanted to own up(even tho it waasnt us) but dee stopped us. and it the end, karine! owned up and said she was the starter of the fight and started to weep as if she had battled and lost for the country. seeing her uncontrollable tears, huaiyi and few others started to tear as well! man you ppl shld hv seen them. it was sucha a scene. and the reason? a bloody faarrking chess piece. karine got all the fame for being the "honest one" butwe still got two demerits. everyone was doing smth united for once : cursing each other badly! i dunt care much abt the demerits really, its more how karine got the fame when she did nth but weep and act? that was really hypocritical.

--
hmt was laughter with chicks; and i got 34 for orallll(: ecstaticfied. brunch with komi.shan.gaya
with truckloadsa smiles&laughter!hahas. loves- eldds was the usual. but ryte after that i was drained off all my energy. but i still trudged my wayto tution and stuudied. and after that here i am at 1137pm awake; after my exhausting day. my eyelids are threatening to close but i really dunt wanna sleep cos im clammy abt how the robber might climb into my room =/
--

date with choclixr and space for movie and shopping at j8 tmr(: carnn wait.
going to catch johneyyandorlando(: whees! happiness aside. im so screwed.
its official! i hv performance the nxt whole week and the week after that; a whole
list of tests and hmwrk to complete. i hv to somehow get into the mugging spirit. cos i
need to catch up man! im feel really clammish again. cos i dunt wanna land up in dnt nxt yr.
and if i dunt want to, i gotta begin now. =/ i hv so much to studyyyyyy. and i dunnnnnt wantttttttttttt toooooooooooooooooo. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i hv to start with science and hist; i dunt get any detail abt it. GODsaveme!

--

once monday starts, it going to be the so called last week before i miss school (cos my jubliee hall performance) not exactly anxious abt the whole thing, more melancholical really. i seriously
was in higher spirits during pre-teen theatre. anws; its not gg to be much of a promising week unless i arrange a date on friday with the 'people'. -befuddled.

--

i hate EMAK totally now. i had to rush to madrasah and see the kids' playing musical chairs. i BOTHERED to go there cos my demn cher said "..dear there's going to be class today, pass the msg." and there i went, hurriedly with my scarf screwing my face up. hasinah and me were pratically fuming man. but it turned out we practiced our usual fetish.-bitching&TALKING(: it went on for like an hr or so, and nasima hunnaye was on loudspeakerr(: our hands itched so we kinda wanted to call shashir, but i struggled to stop them and so they somehow listened to me and instead called ashraff (the camp one) RAH! i msged him to call back so we cld conference; but NOOO i had to be a dumbASS at time and so i msged my other ashraff.

and that was the beginning of a HUGEmess. i managed to clear it up abit tho; i can be so freakishly dummbbb sometimes. GRR. but i hope im still on good terms with ashraff(: talking abt the ppl i met at camp. guess who i met today? RAWR. shashir's sister, jannahka. humilation literally pinched my veins into half. i kinda figured she knew me and shashir got closer and she's the scarf/pious kinda person! so i was really scared she'll blow my cover ryte there, but she didnt! GREATSISTER =D we were just doing a mini convo when ela wailed for food, so i left and that was about it; we exchanged smiles here and there. *super relived nth BADD happened at the INDIANmuslim family day. (note: indian muslim is the key word, cos i see no other community who spread rumors faster than us; but we still ROCK) ohh and the rojak there is SUPERR NICE(: i feel FATTT now. =/

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saturday morn i was at 'the arena' thing at tp. alot of flirting gg on i think. hahas. i agree komi whos hot and whos not(: adrian pang is a GOOOODDDDDDDDDDD host btw. making it into the 'arena wld be like making me eat spinach. -get the picha?YEAH. shopping for awhile at tp after that with lovelies, and jaysree saw HOTshades but was cashout. (im sorry BABE! i swear i am!) bought a hot pair of studds(: pinkk and pretty! heh. had to rush down to newton aft that. act3 is the bestest forever(: will be missing it next week. its like spliitting half of me -BAWLS. i wishh i'd be there, cos there's this whole ".whos gg to be director thing" gg on and i really wish i cld be co-director or smth tho im pretty sure my chances are low. cos when it comes to pressure, i break down ALOT; my act3 hunnayes. you know wad i mean. i can keep strong if i want to, but i dunt wanna risk bringing down the rest of the team due to my tears. and plus this term's troop isnt superb too. breaking divides cast rocks too much to be compared to it. its gg to be a laborious fight to just do this performance well. -SCREAMS.

--
had brunch with john.jerome.samirra.tasha.maya.and adam later. we were talking for hours abt our dirty crap. HAHAS (abel in spandex and the 'TING') okay. i dunt wanna go there. it was FUN.FUN.FUN(: but i didnt bring my cam :( btw, long john's is cheap and deliciouss man! i had food for 1.80, and i was full(: we shld lunch there soon. there's salad's there too!
--
real friendship is being there, when probz come:
"...chubby cheeks are so cuute okay? i love gals with chubby cheeks; dunt mind if i pinch you when we meet okay? haha"
][ ڟحِڔ ©][ 'KILLERs.eccentric smiles in heaven:
".. okay. i FEEL REALLY FAT now. thanks alot man"
real friendship is being there, when probz come:
hahas. no la! you're really cute with it okay. you're skinny in yr body. dun tension la.
][ ڟحِڔ ©][ 'KILLERs.eccentric smiles in heaven:
heh. im not tension-ing. but i didnt know you look so much at my body.
real friendship is being there, when probz come:
i nv la. you're cute la with cheeks. i swear. i love babies and gals with chubby cheeks =D
o.O
youth rocks: i love babies so much.
][ ڟحِڔ ©][ 'KILLERs.eccentric smiles in heaven: AGREEEDD(: my cousin's the HOTTEST. cos she's my blood and flesh(:
youth rocks: hahahs. i love yr cheeks too! so cuute la.
][ ڟحِڔ ©][ 'KILLERs.eccentric smiles in heaven:
im gg to take that as a compliment man. you're not the first. i feel FAAAT again!
youth rocks: haiyo,you're pretty&thin la.
][ ڟحِڔ ©][ 'KILLERs.eccentric smiles in heaven:
hahas. okays. i BELIIEVVEE YOUUU(:


CONCLUSION: girls&guys aplenty hv told me abt my cheeks. up to them if they find it hot or not, but for now i shant try to shrink em and consider em one of my hot features(: but as more my tummy and all i shall continue my sit ups!(: BUT CHEEKS ROCKS(:

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cam whoring results. do not judge; pretty wierdofied. =/ sadly.















--
baby. i've made the decision. im going to wait. wait for you to approach me. so that i dun hv to create acrimony in the serinity. cos its unwanted. if its meant to be it'd be there. so do what your heart desires. its what matters the most. iloveyouso-

im obsessed with babies once again.

shahirra so has to win the adorable-ness award. the mmt i saw more than 5 sA!hoes outside my home i knew MUHbaby had come(: and when the door flew open, there she was crawling on the floor trying to reach the tvee as if it was mt everest; HAHA. and she kept blabbering all kinda baby lang thing to me and arshad and her mummaye. arshad in return was talking to her too. they were hving this convt abt how tall the tvee was i think. hehe. so demn cuute i mean. GOD; ILOVEHER! all the convt with her on the phone (where she blabbers her cuuteness) paid off yestd when she shaked her booty and came with arshad. arshad wasnt in the mood for pics. so shahirra was crowned cam whore for the day. she left me plenty small huggs and loadsa kisses. and an abundant of tears. but ILHER! i can say thhat till the cows come home. the pichax shall be a feast for yr eyes. p.s-notice her growth and fairness and smile(:















was at sya's hse entirely today. it was chocolixr chill out forever with raaj. we were busy doing what we do best and trying to complete the banner. it was messy fun. -sya's like the number one best girlfriend to make you look HOT,HOT! and dee as well. i swear they shld start a saloon. my hair is demn straight and hot now. sya has all the pics so i can do nuffing. im almost done with the banner so that ticks smth of my list. i gotta go catch some tvee.
--

mwah.



p.s- i look drained in those pics, cos once i reached home i snatched my cam and clicked away./
HEH

before i move on;
i think i ought to make an apology who all those who were with literally or were hanging on the phone with me during the past 5hrs.
(komi.shal.dee.kavi.dar.jays.
pam.raj.clement.sya.
shanaa)
i hv been extremely intoxicated for all the wrong reasons. and i swear i dunt know what got into me, i was acting like a fcuking drunkard man.
im sorry hunnayes. i really am. my sub concious mind did smth to me and i re-acted that way,
must hv been the after math of my endless dreams. thanks for all the love tho.-

today was awfully wierrdd. i got turned on the lamest things. sya and me kept whispering sexual nothings to each other.(as friends) and during history i got into this 'naughty' look kinda thing and god i did it at raj and so many other ppl man! i sposedly looked like a slutty butch. i screwed today tottaly. it was sposed to be the best day of the week. DEMN!
--

i hv dates for tmr and saaturday. i've yet to hv answered aloot of ppl who asked me if im free;
cos im unsure myself.im unsuure abt LOADSA stuff but if i dun start now, i'd nv get started. either way; where i belong production&teen theatre are my main worries now. i just need to get throu it well(: these are some of the stuff i ought to do:


1) i gotta finish the banner (chocolixr+space) by monday. im D O O M E D !
2) i gotta do the bloody shoe design thing soon.
3) i wanted to see tasha abt her performance thing!(im so sorry babe)
4) i need to get a head start abt the NAC production thing.
5) i need to ask zachary to give me more lines and confirm the tickets.
6) i need to plan my time for nasimma&crez girls
7) i promised shashir abt the date thing!
8) i need to work up to my mums expectations abt the whole 'studying' thing, to prove to
myself that im more than an ass of a slob?!
9) i need to somehow get my thoughts done abt history(cos i've not been listening) and practice
HARDDD on math (if i wanna pass that is)
10) i needa get my desires and social life as fun at it was beforrre.
11) and i gotta control my urge to act on the spot (esp sick characters)

so DUH, the answer is gg for some hot shopping trip and food-out so i can focus!
now. that i've written everything down, i've hell loadsa to do. SHITUSUUMAN!

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UGH! anws; as for oral today. i think it went smooth. so my lovely darlings do NOT text me or
i.m on msn abt how i screwed my oral. cos deep inside i think i did kinda bad too. i used abt 4 over english words and amarageetha's comment on it that i had improved seemed darn sacarstic. school ends at12 tmr. i HOPE i can get high with my cam in hand(:
--

if you cld tell me you'd be ther by my side,
even tho i was intoxicated for all the wrong reasons.
boy, you got me all over you then.
i can tell nthing now, cos you're equally bamboozled.
now lets do things hand in hand and look up into
heaven with our eccentric smiles baby!

the SATurday.the CAMP.and the YOUTHday(: so much for the fun at indiemuslimie camp. haha. it wasnt my defination of fun. gosh, they spent so mucch time in the conference room, lecturing us abt how we are to be good muslims etc. GOD, i mean we are like the hyper type of ppl and all they can do is confine us to some air conditioned room and call that fun? man, that sucks big time! it kicked off at 9+ where we had a good look at everyone there (no cuties i swear, except for musa anneh whos 21. LOL) .




we played a dumb ice-breaking game to get to know ppl, and once that ended the torcher started and at some parts leaving us with in btw breakfast and lunch breaks. there was only one game: the amazing race at arnd 4+. they gave us cash to stride around singapore in mrt with my demn hot/black top and scarf searching for surauhs/masjids in shopping centres etc. that was EXHAUSTING i swear. but i didnt get to be in nasima/hasinah's grp which was a puuurfect oppurtunity to make mooorree friends, and i did. but the dumb ass freaks, didnt let us socialize with the guys; cos they were afraid smth might happen. HAHAH! either way, we came in third for the race but courtesy of our presentation and team spirit we won 20bucks popular voucher and a cd. FIRST PRIZE! you shld have seen my super slow reaction. i was dang flabbergasted man. but some ppl told me, i wld definately get an award, cos the host (nasim anneh) he kinda like me in a student-tcher way. so yeah.


the amazing race landed us grp5 (hafsa.me.and zirah and another girl) in fatigue but made us all high cos we were done with it(: we gotta play bowling till 8 where we saw the flaws of mr musa (nabi_anneh) haha and some ppl's great talent in bowling. DINNER was awesome (all the food was SCRUMPTIOUS man) after dinner they were back to lectures. haha but during that lecture there was ALOOT of eye-contact flirting and smiling gg on. i noticed loadsa bboys checking girlies out! (: heh. but the boys werent much of an eye-candy. sadly = / and the irony? the camp was sposed to teach us to abstain from 'uncontrollable desires'(boys&sexual hopes) HAHA! i was msging during part of the camp to many ppl cos if i talked to much with nas&hasin then, they'd isolate me with some ass. so yeah i occupied myself with msges and he didnt catch me. HAHA! (thanks to all my camp-msg ppl. LOVE)

once the camp ended, to my 'surprise' the guys stalked the pretty threesome (us) to ask for our numbers. and we noticed em' so hasin and nas moved away first to see if they'd come towards me. and they did. UGH we exchanged numbers. and since then they've been texting us all. hahas.nasima got some contact in sec2, arrifin&shashir were the most hyped to exchange n.o with me (but, i wasnt really interested. guess why? haha) hasinah got ashraff's number. the whole 'uncontrollable desires' talk was a complete waste of time, judging on how the boys followed us. but they'd make good boy-friends(: sposed to meet them soon. for a movie or smth.

p.s- musa anneh (hottie) turneed out to be my uztaza's brother. god was that alarming. when he said it; we were like "OMFG, not my uztaza, uzataza fatimah. shitman. bye anneh"
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i look like crap in some photos, cos scarf dun do good on me!

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youthday was spent tottally sleeping. i woke up late and just relished the thoughts of yestd and some other stuff i dunt wish to type out. mummaye didnt allow me to go out. DEMN, so raj and me spent the whole day bitching abt haha ppl we hate and then we went into our dirty talk again. i wished i went tho, chocolixr+ space 1/5 looked HOTTTT in the neos. i need to do some shoppping! i had tutiion later part of the day and then bonding with family. hanged on the phone ALOOT throughout the day with different ppl, (not to mums approval) cos "...boys on the fone with my at 1045+ will give the wrong impression. BLEHX"

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i can somehow see through yr mask, boy that you aint ready. cos if you are, then i'd dare. show me the smile. show me the lust is there. cos i pine for everybit of you(: -if afraid to try. cos i dunt want to be the one afflicted.
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DEDICATIONS!

maya- MAYA! gosh. prettyface relax. act3 is where you belong. dun fret yeah? call me again and we can bitch. cos you're a suuupppppperrr GREAT person. tasha and me think so, and we wldnt lie wld we? LOVEyas. studboy wants you!(=

sindhuuu-i want yr skirttt! komi had class after school surprisingly and i was sick = / pleasee meet me. i desperately need a skirt! and yrs seems hot!(: LOVEyas. +i'veyettotry+


komi- EGOISTIC BITCH! iloveyouso- you cld hv pretended to be 'marugaya' it wld hv worked.


shal- babies rock! we rockk. wheets. thanks for making tl fun(: shaannnn- iLOVEyou. hahas. you make my life brighter girl!

rajkumarr- HAHA. we are spose to watch pirates of the caribean, you promised me! and yr mums not a bitch man(: love-

shashir- you owe me a nc-16 movie boy(: soorry abt yestd. glad you understand(:


nasima- you are the cuuuuutest girl i swear. iloveyouMORE!

jaysreeee- my parker penn hunnaye.

tasha- i missh you. be there nxt week girl. 3>love --

this is something, once again i tore from someone's web. its adorable.


answer all these 10 questions truthfully, and tagg the people who you want them to do this.

1) do you think you're hot and name yr best feature :
yes to certain extent. i think my eyes and eyebrows are really unique.
and uhm my arms arent that bad!(:

2) if yr bf arranged to give you a surprise in two mins wld you change to smthing awesome and leave or just hurry down in yr present clothes? and why? :
if he drops me hints on where the surprise is, and its far away, i'd change into smth smooth and hot, but if he just wants to hang arnd below my block; i'd go down in my present green tank top and black shorrts(: sexaye!-grins.

3) what could be the most eccentric way a guy could propose to you:
uhm, in his spandex with a bouquet of dead flowers? and instead of kissing/hugging me?
he starts kissing my toes? THAT'D BE DARN ABSURD!

4) what is the best and worst thing any guy:
his body&eyes shld be the best and the worst wld be bad breath and b.o? OH and really long arm pit hair and stuff. turnoff!

5) wld you date a quiet but super nice boy next door or playboy hunk?
uhm. the boy next door but i wld love if he had goodlooks. but still niceboy wld be good
enuff(: -SERIOUSLY!

6) if you and one of your girlfriends like the same guy; wad wld you do and why?
a) give him to the girlfriends and flirt with him behind her back
b) keep him to yrself and apologize to your friend.
c) give it to yr girlfriend and hook yourself with the guy's friend.

actually, none of the above. but if i had to 'B'. unless my girlfriendd realllllllyy
lloves the stud. if she isnt madly in love with him, then hes my property(:

7) whats the worst thing you'd love with your boyfriend and yr girlfriends:
er, worse wld be to make out in the toilet with my bf?(: that'd be fun!(: hahas.
worse with ghurlfriends wld be to, sneak outta the hse at 1 and go clubbing and get drunk.
= /-i wld never do that!

8) name a spot/place which yr girlfriends or boyfriend would be in heaven with you:
if i were with my boyfriend, then by the seaside and nite that'd be hot. with my girlfriends it
wld shopping in town forever and later sleeping over at a chalet with em(:

9) would you flirt with a hot guy if you were attached: ( in SIMPLE words, are you a flirt?)
well. flirt is a strong word. rather socialize wld be better! but i'd be a loyal girlfrienddd to my beloved sugarboy(: and wld intro the stud to one of my single and hot girlfriends, so i can become close to him as a BIL(:

10) have you ever lusted to make love(if yes, make love with who?), or atleast talked abt it to yr girlfriends in depth:
HAHAHAH! with sya.raj.clement! YEAH loadsa LOADSA times man. cos we gossip abt other ppl's sex life and stuuff. and no, i dunt lust to makelove. im saving that for my future husband!
but i've read books on sex, so i've talked abt it in depth loadsa times(:

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i dunt want ppl tagg ppl. so i'd list it here.

1) KOMATHI!
2) VRINDHA!
3) SINDHUUU
4) NATASHAA*
5) SHALINII!

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the new act3 ppl arent that bad, maya&nicholas are pretty good(: yays. i wldnt mind working with them! the rest are uhm, not very spontaneous? yeah. but adam.reshmi.JUSTIN.abel and kiren were there to make me high. love them(: tasha hunnaye. get yr ass there. adam misses you. okay and abt missing ppl! i misshhhhh; SHASHIand jonah so much man! and of course the beloved, john.rashmi.and devina! pop by soon. i missh and love you all! the breaking divides cast can nv be replaced; uhm except for er wayin and zephan? hahas. yeah. oh and the where i belong production, i hate the mica officially. farkingg ppl! RAWR


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my dad's yelling abt current wastage. so im not alone. i wishh i was tho. then i cld sleep and just be happy abt the own space cos im dead tired. but heck, i'd go hit the tveee. outts-

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im still in thoughts about the whole thing.
i have so much time alone and i imagine alot of stuff when im training or cabbing arnd.
so i still dunt hv answers. i wish i knew yr answer. then i cld make up my mine.

*these are the some photos, im currently obsessed aboutt.