i wanted t` draw a smiley face on your pacs baby.
and now i dunt. i just wanna run far away.
cos im frigtened nv like before. all those tamil words are haunting me.
its wrong to LOOK; i just realised.
there's always reality bursting into my pretty pretty delusions.
fcukthat.
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i've got so many demn things on my mind. so much for loving life
and pushing myself to extremeties. UGH. i mean; i dunt wanna overload
myself. cos i wanna take things slowly! (FYI-my fooking speaker spoilt so i
carn calm myself with music. RAHHHHHHHHHHHH) but instead of letting me
choose my pace. things are running at break neck speed. i just had a test today (which
im quite sure i didnt ace) and 2 tests tmr as well. and on friday the horrifying MATH! the whole week which i missed school was the week where tchers taught all the important stufff. and we missseddd it!
UGHHHHHHHHHH! and to top it all i hv dramas&social problems to think abt and i miss teen theatre(:
hahas. and i miss the liberty of gg out on fridayyy cos i was sure i deserved the break after
the long hectic week. but this time despite my 3dates that i was asked; i still carn get outta
the hse cos i needa catch up with science and mathhhhh! -GROANS*
sometimes i reallllly think i might hv bitten off to much to chew = / i just wanna get past this week and get back to having fun on friday nighttss(: i hv alreadyyy planned my friday+weekends next week to be
fun. so all i hv to do now is just breeze past 27&28th jullllyy. and pass the math test(:

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read the inner and immerse meaning of the poem abt spammer.

countless times we bombarded her and yet all futile.
she seemed too docile with the tinge of innocence to create all that havoc.
half say it isnt her; half says it is.
we conned her all this while, making us look like the meanbitches.
and so much for trying to get the truth and making life in serenity.
its just more messed up and i carn be more bamboozled.
the pieces arent matching and the jigsaw's not done.

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