why wldnt anyone loove fridays? and the weekends after that? when you hv like activities packed for the whole nighhht(: WHOOTS. but this gaiety will end soon i guess =/ exams are nearing, and the amt of tests&results are showing me signals to get down to mugging hard to make it to the combination i've been desiring for a pretty loong time(: but the tests that i've done, proves to me that i've been doing my work pretty well cos the tests arent as intricate/mind boggling as i expectedd(: on a much less studious tone,


FRIDAY-went well =D

we did the card.the cake was the perfection. the best creation of taahira's. i think i hv a serious
flair and fetish for baking stuff. a home ec tcher sounds pretty good(: raj didnt exude the emotions we wanted him to, but yes he waas shocked. he smiled and kept on repeating thankews(: which was a good sign. he really ought to be much thankful for all we had done for him. the sleepless nights, the money,the effort and keeping the whole thhing quiet(:
but either way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJ(: iloveyouso-. i dunt wanna go really into detail. check the pics out(: heh.





























personal notes:
KAVII, the hottie: hey prettaye lady. haha. we both are always flustering and smiling and camwhoring. cos you're the very pretty lady. iloveyou too much.
SHAN, the babelicious: YOU ARE HOT! and were the hottest on friday. i carn describe how mesmerized i was when i saw you. baby iloveyoutoo(: heh
MINDEE, the devilicious chick: HAHA(: yr lameness&cutness are worthy of you. iloveyou with all my heart for yr cutness.
CLEMENT, the chuubbyy casanova: heh. thanks for everything hun. -loves.
HAPRAAAAJ,the loved: HAPPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN. and thanks for being everything you were.
iloveyou so much for everything. hv fun with whoever.
SYA, the prettayeONE: haha.zoro&yoou shall live on. my BIL is cuute(: and has cuuryy puff hair. loveyou sya(:

chickaa-shal: we missed yr presence verymuch!


I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE HEEEEEERASH(:

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partys are lined up for me to attend. not really the havoc kinda PARTYS. but more like ways for me to get fatter. cos there'll be so much cake and food. all waiting for me to indulge in. i guess, no matter how much we abnominate one there always has to be a thankew for them. despite the 4 that are set up, im only sincere towards ACT3 AMY(: and primary sch tcher. okay, im not being mean or anything. but i hv to put foward my sincere thanks to AMY&ADLINA for always being the best and being there when i needed them. ILOVEYOU BOTH(: where as, amara&eldds tchers are more the less genuine ppl i wanna thank, the love i hv for them is really superficial. and this whole "thank you tchers"thing makes me muse, what i mean by i love the tcher?
issit cos'

1) she is always giving me leewaays?
2) she's chiding me when i deserve it
OR BOTH? heh

ponder-.


tcher day stuff is on thursday, so mon-wed theres sch. =/ RAH! there'll be tests and everything.
i needa get my ass glued to the chair to memorize SCIENCE.

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im planning stufff for amy next sat! so today was really hectic. haha but when isnt act3
just like my most pleasent get away(: its the best bliss(: i dunt wanna elaborate. i just need to make personal shout outs:


TASHA: hey hun, it'll work out. i'll do my best(: i promise. a pretty girl like you will get him.
trust me okay? and you'll do yr life. stop hating life, they're ppl like me who can spark it up.
so start smiling can? loveyou/
MAYAA: hey, i've been on the phone with yoou for really long nowdays. today was our record. i hope i got everything sorted out. and i just realised how identical our lives are. and im glad i've met you(: cos its like i know wad you're gg through and its great being with you. relax hun.
loveyou. so smile
ABEL: HAHAH. im really sorry for whacking you so hard. i feel really mean okay? i didnt mean to like make you get scars and stuff i just wannted to get the freaking ball . RAH hope it didnt hurt. loves-
JUSTIN: yr shirt is vulgar haha. i didnt talk to you much today =/ *run towards you&frowns.
RESHMI: loveyoooooooooooooooooou. haha. and yr voice. this is my vasantham star! i knowit.
get through the whole phase soon yeah? im always here.
NIC: i salute you here as well, for being so calm abt the whole thing. but i hate you, you B****RD. you left me squirming online without helping me =/ but you won at checkers, so waddever, loveto see ya next week. -smooches.

for now, this is all i think.

====== for reality
i went to borrow cd at sunshine place, when i came across a pretty old man in a wheel chair stuck at the roads and was unable to move. there were so many ppl walking past him and instead of helping, they just brushed past him. and yes i did help him. i wheeled him all the way over 2traffic lights and i was completely taken aback when i saw the 2matts throwing their cigarette buds at him. i was like F**K you ppl softly. the poor man, was trynna get his life gg and all they cld do was make it more miserable? WTH! and in the mrts too' old ppl are standing and stumbling and i hv to be the one offering seats b4 the other youth do, im not complaining but wad happened to the sense of courtesy? GOD!~

i need to catch the movie i borrowed. so later.*


ll-oves.

my inbox was loaded. i just had to delete the msges, it wld totaally send the wrong msges
to the "pre-gods". i think hes got this huge thing gg, when i send him msges. cos' i nv did flirt with him (and how can someone flirtt through msges?!) but now, i think hes growing on me.
puh-lease do not get me wrong. i dunt think this is leading anywhere near a relationship. but i hv no clue where it actually is leading me too then.

i hv the power to decide if i dunt wanna reply to him, but the thing is: DO I WANT TO? i still dunno. im deluded. my brain is basically torn(though my heart is in perfect condition) my feelings are playing games with me. as i said b4, vaseegara is the worse song. it plucks my mind into mental images. rambunctious mental images i just shldnt describe(BUT it isnt sleazy. heh, im not THAT horny nic)

im unsure of almost everythuing and infact my brain refuses to give in to my so called optimistic mind and i think i shld avoid the whole thing, but its impossible, somehow thanks to the my heart, i wants revenge. i carn describe why. gosh those of you who dunt get this part. i so dunt blame you. its BAFFLING&extremely BEFUDDLING.

thePRINCESS- i carn let my parents/realtives see me, the sanguu will practically blow and make me deaf
theBOY- i know, my relatives carn see me also, so i'll bring you to this place at marina sq. demn
__________. i know you'll love it.
thePRINCESS- awh. (change of topic) i'll try to make time for it (tho,i knew i will nv hv time)

= we taked abt some more stuff when, it came to this msg that struck me again

theBOY - you think i go for looks ah? i dunt look at girls la, only one person stole my heart, its just that ______________.
thePRINCESS - you nv look at girls? HAHA. thats a big lie. im a girl you looked at.
theBOY - exactly, you're the ______________ i _____ much. and i hope you dunt mind da.
you dunt mind all this stuff i say la ____.

= okays. i dunt think i shld type everyth out. cos, once again i hv to rmb that not all the ppl i like are reading my blog. so yeah. and besides those who know me and wanna know wad it is, ask me online or text me or smth?

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act3 was the usual heap of love and funn. i dunt think i can elaborate much. math's hollering my name. but for now, you're looking at the co-director(so, as to speak) of teen theatre II(: WHOOOOOOOOOOOTS(: which means more responsibility and much more work. once more WHOOOOOOOOOOOTS(: before i leave blogspot. i think i needa make a shout out to everybody in act3. heh

tasha: okay okay okay. i loveyou so much pretty face. even though, i spend half of my time calling you skinny anime bitch and teasing you abt a. but i think its time you flirt. some good flirting wld turn him on. make yr goodlooks work! even if he feels hes not ready, rmb the sister and brother hood?
maya: pretty curls. (i likke yr hairr) dunt give a shit abt that blueboy, cos there's plenty more hot fishes in the sea, rmb wad we talked abt? tasha and me will always be here for you. ilu so.
abel&justin: HAHA. ilu tooooo. randy,randy,randy(; you just make me happyy.
nic: hahah, yr 60yr old lovely tcher. i still think i wanna know her child. i dunt believe yr innocence. and i know you're more traumatized than flattered prettyboy.loves-.
samirra: LAUGHS*
kirenn: LAUGHS* again and smiles as thinks of _____ and yoou.


okay. ppl on msn are nudging me. think i shld publish post now.


LLOVES.

im starting t` hate vaseegara. it brings out all the wrong emotions.


shit.im screewedd.

igottagetallmythoughtsstraight.

" i really thought, friends were meant to divulge most of the secrets they had so we all know,
we are there for each other.."


but i dunt really care, really. im gratified it has nth to do with anyone getting killed or smth. rather than feeling bitter cos they didnt tell me earlier. i wld be lying if i said im not disappointed or im feeling wierd that they didnt trust us. but still ( i expected yr trusst raj) but waddever. i just shld say. IM HAPPY FOR YOOU(: and dunt believe mindee. (i do not like yoou friend, im so interested in someone else i think) besides that, i guess it was partly my fault for suspecting all the shit.


my dearest gorgeous girl sya: im sorry okay? this is all just so unexpected and wierd. you were a great person to keep it all like he wanted. so yeah. loves- im glad things arre better hun
my HOT and HOTTER princess dee: i shld learn alot from you. you were the best actress and plus you're the best person to keep things clandestine. prettaye, i hope we got things cleared up on who likes who okay(: loove you too.
raj: haha. i am feeling wierd that you didnt even trust me as a friend. heh.
the VERY VERYY beauuutiful mayirukitty: my life wld be the most boring without yoou and even when things were all so messy you made me so high. LOOVEYOOU =D
the BABELICIOUS KAVIII: hun, you dunt believe this neither do i. but i still loveyou.


GLAD THIS IS OVER CHOCOLIXR(:

dunt question me abt the tittle; its a loooong story and it just popped into my head(:

i wanna clear smth now.

im not angry withh yoou boy; seriously. ditching me and informing me you carn make it are like north and south poles. no matter how many times, dates hv been abandoned i still know, the emotions are floating arnd, maybe on thin ice im not sure. but definately there. so i need no sorries' just comfort me with yr smiles and texts(: i'll be waiting.

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i think there's a rift btw, HOT and cuuute.

its really absurd when ppl mix up hot with cuute. esp when the person you're
describing is like younger than you? though, cute means adorable but ugly. i think
it can be referred to ppl who are extremely lovable and huggable. while hot's like
for ppl who hv great physical beauty. thats extremely alluring? yea smth like that.
but, i know a few girls who drool over guys who are like 4yrs younger than them, when
they're so young they're equal to be yr YOUNGER brothers. (no offense to those)
i loove all my cute lil boys and hot boys all the same though(; haha.

SHASHI IS THE CUUTTESTT(: and SURIYA IS THE HOTTEST(: (difference)

EVERYTHING HAPPNS FOR A REASON.

i so love all my huns in life. my act3 loves,my girls =DD, my boys in class, and all the lovely ppl
i met in this 13years, whether or not if it was that you stepped on my foot (: yestd was super hectic. running arnd from place to place to meet ppl and say a thousand sorries for being late.
hahaa. but stilll aloot of things i gathered. had arena stuff in the morning.
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i definately gave it my one and all. and despite that im not in the team, i know i wldnt be ableto commit to doing my speech and staying up late and then practicing it over and over. cos i already hv so many productions to cope with. and its not like im acing all my tests im lagging, badly. so i seriously gotta catch up baby. so even if that means i hv to throw away my dream of debating for awhile. i dunt think it wld huurt much. theres always NEXT yr! but to those who made the team (jaysree.amalina.mindeeee.komathaye) CONGRATULATIONs wholeheartedly.
do us proud and make it to the semis(:
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had lunch date with sashir and nas, but it was canceled cos nas had hockey and i was late =p
as usual and sashir was sick. = { please get better hun(: like you said we really ouutta meet soon. lunched with maya and tasha had a whackfied ball of time. arent they the best to cheer me up?(: act3 was the bestest heap of fun. the script this term (bloody wedding) is so sensual. GOSH. abel kept saying that i turning randy(go figure) cos there were so much saucyness. i dunt mean to sound obscene but one of the lines that nicholas had to say was
"with you by my side, we shall lie naked on the field......(missing text)" and there was morre. i dunt think i shld really type it out cos its indepth. its far to sexually involved for it to be shown to parents and stufff so its canceled out. heh. the monologues remain the same so im still ms populariiittyy(: as they say, the best things in life finish the fastest. straightened out NAC stuff and found out why reshmi was down. and it make me muse so much. im really so gifted that i dunt wake up one day and get a text or a call from someone, hearing a death of someone. cos that will leave me melancholy strreet forever. i carn bear to imagine just one person i love so much to have died. and how i was gna live without them. i thank god once more that all my loved ones are by my side all the time. (amin)

once that ended abel, justin, kiren and me went to newton foodcourt where we continually discussed being 'randy'. and gosh my eyeliner streaked down to my face. its so good to be with them(: they always bring laughter. we didnt wanan leave really, but then my ice kacang started to melt and create a super big mess so we left eventualllyy! abel and kiren were with me at the bus stop cos i didnt wanna wait alone. ILOVEYOUGUYS(: for waiting by me for so longg. once i reached home, i really wanted to sleep cos i woke up at 7. but then, mum asked me to get ready cos we were going out for dinner after fireworks.

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the fire works are absolutely fabulous. my exhaustion slipped away (and came back later at12) haha. but stilll. i cldnt take much pictures cos there were abt 6000 ppl there? everyone pushing and just nudging to move. so they cld get a better view. we were all standing at the restaurant facing singapore river for like 30mins. and there were so manyy trees = /we cldnt really see thanks to the greenery :( so i hate to crouch low, but still no pics were shot. sadly-. but i heard today was the french's fireworks. it was really nice cos they sprout out of the water and everything.just downright beaaauuutiffuull. we went to eat tiong.b cos orchard was effing packed. slept on the dot and cldnt be happier to see my beddd(:

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VASEEGARA makes me fantasize the horniest things.
daamit. its sucha goood sonng(: iloveit. even made it my ringtone.
loosuepennae no more +___=

im so glad no one cld read my mind.
cos the mental images i hv when i listen to vaseegara.
impeccably kinky. i really think its not over.
but i didnt know where it began. im searching. you're healing.
lets wait for the end result baby. you and me we shall.
iloveyou.iloveyou not.

im extremely rapturous abt today tho my calves are cramped and my eyes are sore.
but i had the bestest fun at orchard with girlies(: shopping is a killer. a very mirthful exhaustion.
the chickas when self obsessed with my cam and now i hv loadsa pics to upload.(: we did our girly thing and no matter how bimbotic it sounds it was heaps of funnn(:
no matter how much one says,
shopping without money sucks/shopping is so unproductive. killing the streets with very hot ppl is considered the retail therapy any girl
needs. bitching,trying on clothes,laughing,camwhoring,choosing presents can wring all the energy outta me! but i LIKKE(:

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its not good having appts pilled up one after another; you gotta rush from one place to another.
a lesson i learnt today. it makes you runn to yr destination and continually apologize for being late. i think i did it alooot today since i woke up. i've got loadsa things to do, and for now i ddunno wads wrong and ryte. but the retail therapy today washed all my worries away and till i haven really thought abt my decisions. and i forced not to either. the following is going to be very random but bear with me_.

1. parents are the best and worst things in my life. i loove them to much to hate sometimes.
2. cucumber facial scrubs arent as good as tomato. cucumbers leave yr face smelling a lil wierd and so, as a result yr tution tcher might think you're nuts.
3. SHOPPING makes yr calves smaller. not yr tummy though.
4. making the ryte decisions suck, cos you're always hoping what you did was the best when you're not very sure yrself.
5. love everybody equally, but when they starrt bitching abt yr friends, dunt try to do any spy work just completely ABHORREE them(:
6. the best thing to do is laugh and smile no matter what anyone says.
7. dunt think of negitivity when you're in a state of utopia.
8. dunt try to think for the rest or try to understand them too much, cos you'll never know
if they like it very much.
9. do whatevers given to you and nv let yr standard slip. you're good at it so mantain it(:
10. start working out or fats shall remain.

- those reallly were the 10things i learnt today(:

there school tmr, and its not exactly smth i wanna do tmr. i really wanna sleep in.

i think its time i leave before parents start to holler.


___. its somehow obscure, i mean everything.
im unsure of my decisions and im stumped by the options.
not exactly flattered but not really infactuated either.
this just seems absurd. but now you see him now you dunt.
i think its all up to saatuurday. to clear up my state of mess.
the first kiss after kidergarden, the embrace of the love. -shakes head.



ll-oves.
taahira.

T A T A

i changed my skin for the fun of it;

better to have changes in everything i do.

thusfore, i think this skin screams class and beauty(:

the prev was mainly my security of myself.

drama is in this skin too. will change it if it find its too plain.

till then, i shld get my asss of the seat and go study.


taatas.

its f-ing annoying when blogger screws up on me. RAHHHHHHHHHHH.
and so much for saving it as a draft, when invalid user appears.
rage somehow just has to find me; (and parents esp) chiding me for coming home
late and eating out. RAH it sucks to be confined to some incensed space where
everyone seems to be getting on each others nerves.

ON A MUCH LIGHTER&HAPPIER TONE_.

music is the only thing thats calming me down ryte now. cos i feel tottally
infuriated and alot like a glutton (cos, i was forced to dinner like 10mins ago?) RAWR.
now i hv to wait for 2hrs b4 i go to bed. its going to be 12 in like 30mins? (and i still feel bloated and FAAT)
=== { im editing this post, cos i published it yestd without finishing my rants. HEH}


life's getting pretty enigmatic and extremely difficult to cope with. they're so many things i wanna do yet im unable to; mainly cos` of commitments and studies. i dunt wanna put my mum down. i somehow wanna prove to her no matter what sch im in i will do well(: [and get 10bucks too.HAHA] and despite all my attempts, many have been futile i reallllly carn seem to sit on a spot and study hist esp properly. math&science arent that bad. but hist is currently the worse and i hv this EXTREMELY baddd feeling that i wldnt do as well as i expected myself to do. my dire whims like getting into c4 stand prominently infront of me, ordering me to work hard and push my guts out. but some part of head screaams
".. yr youth needs some spark and funn. so studyy but also have the BEST time of yr life. dunt wait till you're 20+. cos thats too old. do both hunnaye. dont regret later" well. if i cld multi task well, this wldnt be much of a problem. but unfortunately they are one of my flaws and sadly i dunnt know how this years gna turn out.

BLESS-ME!

national day today wasnt that bad today(: obv cos there were ppl like my lovely loved ones =D - talked&talked&sung till my jaws hurrt now. gotta know several tamil juniors(: some are nerds sadly. need alooot of changing. but besides that i was patriotic during today's celebration and i sang all the songs loudly and with a big beam on my facee. HAHA! i bet if ng saw me she'll be proudd. i might be going to catch the fireworks tonight at esplanade(: this seems to be the beginning of my ardently patriotic to singapore. i shall wear red more this week! dates are lined up this holiday. but i need to MUGGG! RAHH once more. i have to plan it. august is going to fly past. the hectic period will land me in the sept hols where i seriously need to brushh up and all my worrk. god save mee.
















VASEEEEEEGARA`


if there cld be eternal rhapsody. there wldnt be me and yooou. my beloved endorphin. iloveyouso. we hv to work against the acrimony. and we will make it throu baby. meet you under the covers tonighhtt.



taahira's out.-LOVES.