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Wednesday, November 29, 2006 »

the culmination of my constant headaches was yestd.
my head felt like it had to large hammers whacking the sides of my head,
a thousand needles prickling the temples of my head,
and a continual feverish feeling of throwing up, and no im not bullimic.

the main reason for this bizzare concoction is because of my late nights.
been a week since i slept early, and my sudden needs to wake up early.

thank god for mummy's god given hands and panadols. i swear i could have cried buckets.

i have to get my books soon and start revision. zoochies.
38days to 07 =X im freaking scared.

7:27 PM

Friday, November 24, 2006 »

like 40days to the start of a braand new year.
been occupied oh so lately. i think i might be affected by radio active waves
cos im on the phone quite abit {and sometimes i dunt acv my free inc =[ ERK! thanks kavi}

but the main point i logged into blogger was because i realllly mused about what i wanna totally erase from my mind&start afresh in 07. i was planning on listing the stuff i wanna do.
considering i'll be in 3/7. aaaaaaaah ; sucks to think of sec3 really.

so yes, i dunt know how long i'll be typing, dunt post me qns on why i wrote this&that.

however, i wldnt mind going out in full swing in the last few weeks of dec {so call me (: } , im planning on going out with ____ but then again, it all depeneds!

1. no matter how hard it is to be with darling chocolixr next yr, i wanna go out twice a month and go to dearest jerome/jared's home to rott =D
2. somehow manage my new bill to be below 30bucks or IM mighty SCREWED.
3. make sure i persuade mummy to continue act3 till im 16 in june.
4. get to know some special people better
5. get an a for tamil o's
6. stay in top 20 in my class if possible, so i caan entice my parents to shower me in cash =/
7. ahhhh somehow loose a few extra faatyyy cellulites =/ oh zap kavi's high metabolism.
8. make sure YTA works! -PRAY.
9. get a goddemn shitofuckilifying chalet! aaaaaaaaaargh.
10. live life to fullest in sec3 with no regrets. cos i got into the class i wanted to ;

all those people who made me happy in sec2, i seriously wouldnt forget you ppl(=
thanks for always being there {chocolixr.teen theatre.dj3.bigfamily.indiaanaloves.some parts of 2.7}
i cross my heart and promise that i will celebrate new year with you'll (= 311206!

i gotta leave for a weddding, in kebabya. haha im dreading it =[ *might hv some ____!(=

6:55 PM

Sunday, November 19, 2006 »

i cannot ever deny that act3 has never made me happy. to be more exact with words act3 has been a saturday paradise (yes; my everyday life with my school friends are higher than ecstacy) but then again, every saturday was a brand new wave of euphoria(: thank you all for it. as i've already elaborately written in my email to you all; im sure you know iloveyou all so much.

every single girl&boy in the cast, i love you tonnes! everyone was special to me(;

6:21 AM

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 »

that tribute was for kavi, and this is for sangeetha :( sad thing is that dunt think she comes by my site. but still ilovethis chick and so here it is. i only hv 4pics with you, know how pathetic that is? the rest are either with someone else or hv vanished cos of lack of space. but still, i guess its just it sucks how i nv went out as much as i shld hv with you.cos of yr curfews and everyth. dates with you were always in uni! URGH! that so sucks man. but still all our oh so awesome memories in sch(: i wldnt forget all you had done for me and all those times when you knew how i felt and then LAUGHHHH like crazy abt it. the dreams abt seniors and a proper t.s all will be based on next yr indian batch. you wont be in the same class :( tamil class wont be much of a blast either :( i really cant put in words the stuff we did but you know it and you do i.
when it came to the one indiana girl in my class who i loved it was YOOOOOOOOOU(: as i said to kavi as well, thanks for standing by me despite what everyone said. you were another one of the steady honest girl-friend i love so much(: thanks so much for everyth darling.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY.LOVE YOU TONNNES!

yen anbe, yen anbe. yen nejukul neethanadi(:
{my darling, my darling, you're the 1 in my heart}

5:56 AM

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have 3 hrs to the end of her birthday. this is the tribute baby(:

{i hope you get to see this chick}

i didnt post ALLL our pics, i swear i counted and there were over 50 stored in this system and what more? when i changed my com, some got lost, so theres still more! these are just all the memories that we went through, i wish i cld take this picture of me crying for abit of an melodramatic effect. haha(: you know me!

you're the one&ONLY chick who will watch horror with me and hv the most random dreams
{ like gg to OCH&TRYING not to screammm} you were the one honest best girlfriend i had in secONE&TWO, no matter what annyone said, you were always beside me. i knew you the best and i think you know me the best too. all my rubbish secrets and all yrs as well, {some i hv forgotten, others i just keep it inside me} its god sent really how you were always there to teach me and help me to this happy happy doll i am now(: i hv actually become who i am, partially thanks to you chickaa(: i owe you alot of my life.i wld nv forget the first time you taught me how to put on the tekka eyeliner and pose for the friends neoprint and neither wld i ever forget our downright gorgeous ones {dunt need a man.LOL}
now in 07, you're in 3/4 and im 3/7, 3classes apart you shall run to recess like a hindi heroine running towards the hero and msg me during lessons {hopefully my phone has network by then&yr prepaid's topped up more often. heh} as i've already promised, i WILL go out with you twice a month and it will nv be awkward cos we are the bestest. we make up chocolixr and together with all the other pretty chicks, the love shall remain darling.

ONCE AGAIN, FROM THE MOST DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART! THANK YOU THANK YOU for everyth you hv done for me and HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY!

-yr present is really on its way. i swear, if not i'll post a chain saw to yr home for you to kill me.

XOXO babeh. iloved yr presence with sumi's in the horror today. the 2 of you'll are just wayyyyyyyyyyyyy to adorable la.

te quiero camión entero carga a querid{i love you truck loads darling.it sounds more awesome in spanish. haha}

{foward or die. HAHAHAHAHA}

4:52 AM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006 »

HAPPPY BIRtHDAY KAVI BABY(: (i will hv a tribute to you in the next post)

i really hope you enjoyed yestd, and yr present honey, it'll get to you or you can kill me.

im complete shacked out, i've had 3hrs sleep thanks to my book and stupid big eyes which dunt wanna close. i had to wake up a 730 for tution. ARRRGHHHH! i looked like a disgusting piece of trash :( and being nocturnal didnt suck till today man. F__; but still it was a discussion with a virtuous lady abt abortion, and the rising steady increase in MALAYS making abortions. i have to say that was the worst most humiliating 15minutes ever. she was kind off implying (but not in the blasphemous way, more like advising yeah) to me that islam had so many rules about covering what we shldnt be showing and yet why is there a steady increase? my brain just split into 2; i told her my views reallly. but KILLING A UNBORN CHILD! isnt that equal to murder?

and i seriously cant believe underage abortions are allowed in singapore? if they are then our goverment deserves to be brainwashed, i mean what sort of values are we cultivating among these raunchy teens?!
" have sex and just screw if you get pregnant? cos theres always a way out like abortion, no harm done!" thats just way too wrong, since when did people becoming so freaking heartless?
seeing god's creation being crushed with some shiny metal tool doesnt seem heart rending?
that i think, you are the most godforsaken person ever.

i hope those wrecked people learn,

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im off to watch horror with kavi =D OH THANKS MUMMY!

loves!

i feel like revamping my whole blog though i oh so love my skin. my archives are missing together with my links :( oh please help me!

9:02 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006 »

hahah. the last time i blogged it was tues and i was a little emo, but now im HIGH(:
and still nocturnal. (2.35 am) haha! its realllly awesome how friends are just the people you need it.
whether phone call, msn or just getting out. and they know you best. except for some.
i had been saving as much for my dearest(s) birthday by not going out for past 2days.
how torchering reallllyy! i mean, im not used to it. i'll be out full blast next week(: YAY!
but i need to rush and get my babes their presents. as usual time flies, their celebration is in 2days seems like we were celebrating dee's birthday minute ago.

vivo. was. SIZZLING HOT. abit of an irony, cos the temperature was really low. i was freezing
even in a long sleeve top :( but to be more literal abt things, covenant steven straight was OH SO HOTTTT(:

the movie wasnt worth 8bucks man :( kavi&me shld hv gone for grudge. erk.
but still, jays was the cutest&bestest movie partner. we kept giggling&laughed abt the same things. hard to put in words. but she's the chick you wld wanna catch a movie with, not that the rest of them werent good. i was stealing popcorn with jays so yeah.

but i still love once again : JAYSREE,KAVITAA,MINDY,SHALINI,SHAMM(: for being gorgeous chicks and having an awesome time with vivo with mee.

and also the nice boy-friends : JARED,JEROME and eric i guess! thankyooou!

LOVEEEEE you ppl oh so much. sucks to rmb that we wldnt be together.

didnt get anyth cos it was either too ex or not very prettyy.
bumped into a few known i.m's some i didnt want to see&wanted to.
wldnt be going for skml show, AAAAAAAAAAAH :( sorry nas.

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enough of my bimbotic rants reallly, my heart fluctuates so badly&threatens to tear,
when i muse abt that oh so adorable 9yr old cousin i met at his home.
he's got this horrific disease with called Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis. :(

Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS), also called Lou Gehrig's disease, is a progressive, fatal neurological disease affecting anyone&anywhere. The disorder belongs to a class of disorders known as motor neuron diseases. ALS occurs when specific nerve cells in the brain and spinal cord that control voluntary movement gradually degenerate. The loss of these motor neurons causes the muscles under their control to weaken and waste away, leading to paralysis. ALS manifests itself in different ways, depending on which muscles weaken first. Symptoms may include tripping and falling, loss of motor control in hands and arms, difficulty speaking, swallowing and/or breathing, persistent fatigue, and twitching and cramping, sometimes quite severely. ALS strikes in mid-life. There is no cure for ALS; nor is there a proven therapy that will prevent or reverse the course of the disorder.

and all that information a 9 year old has to absorb. i cld hv just burst out in tears when i saw him. he was so ... mirthful(unbelievably) unaware that he might not live (touch wood) its reallly really took me to another level of maturity when i thought abt how he actually is so normal. despite the fact that, he has been going through numerous ops&torment. he's been living through it all. seriously a form of inspiration. when i looked into his eyes and kissed his hand (salam) it made me feel so shallow in a way,
cos it was preposterous how someone of that age cld not be complaining abt why he was the unlucky boy struck witth the disease while i was sitting at home whining that my arms were too fat or that my cheeks looked like they were punched.
these might just be adolescence whims to be a barbie doll, but comparing me to someone his age was just wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to much ignominy.
=l i hv to change and i will. that boy just made me stronger.

all those who came pass this post, i hope you'd put a prayer for him.
whichever religion you are in.
he doesnt need pity all he needs is care.
he seems to have alot of that,
so all i can do is PRAY.PRAY that he'd live to love(:

7:46 AM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 »

reallly surprises me how come im not really affected by the whole singlehood thing.

(but im feeling much much better now, thanks komi)

i guess to some extent, i've been worrying about more complex issues&pondering hard really.
resulting in the nocturnal side of me, i dunt wanna sleep i just wanna talk&talk till 3.
or i roll around on my bed scribbling down stuff, i've finished a stack of foolscap.

"..i've gotten the things i wanted in life and now its time to let go babe" -quoted by the divineONE.

somehow, im feeling like a bad bitch. oh god it sucks i swear.

1. i hv this gnawing feeling in my stomach even though i've gotten into the BESTEST combination i ever wanted to go to.
2. not been putting 100% effort in act3,
3. certainly have lost any form of contact with rgpians. oh shit =[
4. been completely clueless when it comes to jerome or jared.
5. wishing days would nv past, cos i want the holidays to last forever.
6. been so money-minded lately and little too horny for god's sake.

im not grounded but my mummy wants me at home at least 2days a week.
i wld get more money when i go out then. i have so many things to do.
and i have a mth to accomplish that, considering that theres

1. 6days to kavi&shan's bday
2. 10days to my production
3. 2days to my pre-paid finishing.
4. tution every monday.
5. extra hours for production.

God won't talk to me
I guess she's pretty busy lately
I like to believe
She's listening

I'm starting to feel
All of my bruises imagined all real
I'll get through each day
Dip through the bad ones
To get to the good ones
Who's keeping score anyway

And this is my beautiful life
Only things sudden is everything changes
Lows and the highs
And almost goodbyes

8:18 AM

Sunday, November 05, 2006 »

bye lovey-dovey messages.
hello net-working and boy-joy.

7:20 AM

Saturday, November 04, 2006 »

i think it never really hit me, that when i enter school next yr it wldnt be with the people i love ever so much, (those in my claass i mean)

1. KAAVITA

oh gosh bitch, there nv has been a mmt where i wanted to kill you (unless it was because, you were too hot, hahas) yr company was always so pleasent, our hidden msges when we conferenced. our bitch fits&dreams(that some got full-filled) all those times when i needed you were there, even during the ameer times, ILOVEYOUU oh so much, for always being there for me cos i dunt think even though we might be different in many ways, we hv always been asked if we were sisters. and we hv proven we were telephatic in many ways. since the first time, i met you&the first time we went out and took the most disgusting neoprints (friends one? and you thought me how to put eyeliner?) untill now, vivo city! i treasure every memory. cos no one replaces kavi-ta(:

2. MINDYYY

haha. i always will rmb you as well. cos of all your endless compliments, even when im ever so fugly, you make me feel ever so happy with yr TYRAAA! all the times when we chatted at 8 in the morning in sec1&how we talked math for over an hr during our mugging times, i wld neveer forget, cos you were the one always being my angel of love, when you fiddled with eyeshadow on my eyes to make me look HOT HOT(: ohh haha.
we shared the same fears&worries abt parents and results. i will love you babeh(:

3. SANGEETHAA

ahas, we always dreamt! and when im with you im always laughing. i dunt know if you'd ever read this. but i'd never forget our made up jokes abt _______ and how we laughed abt lollu sabha and every single thing everywhere. even though i went out very little times with you, you're still the pretty mayirukutty who didnt hv a fringe in sec1 and now a talllll hot model who _____ has an eye on. we might land up in the same class, even if we dunt, there's always amara's lesson(:

4. SYAFIQAH

i carnt say i didnt hv memories with you cos i did. it was quite happy really. all those times we went out and just laughed. dunt really know what happened but i know the memories are still in my heart.

5. JERROMEE.

i always thought you were abit annoying and racist, but i nv got to know you better till this year. but since i've gotten to know you, i've definately changed my perspective. you've always been there when i needed yr help and you continually apologized for everyth you did even if you did it or not. my life in the corner of 2/7 was pretty boring. but you kept me awake with yr retard jokes and everyth else you do! i nv slept in the worst lessons cos i know you'd be there, heh. thanks for all the cash&everyth man(: LOVES!

6. CLEMENT

oh so cute, even though i might hv gotten pissed off with you, i never failed to smile when i saw you. yr chubby cheeks and macho act with pitson! SO ADORABLE. yr 'makan' and money that you lost, all the funnnaye times we had i loved. and all the times you thought me! thanks man. LOVES!

7. JASPER

as usual, you seemed like a BIG lamer, errrk. i cldnt stand you. till i saw the better you in DJ3, how cuute you were. the adorable testimonials and the permission to be racist. AWHHH!(: yr smiley face and everyth. i still owe you a present. shitso! SORRY. but LOVES!

8. RAJkumar.

all the times since sec1, wheere you covered yr face with tribes until our gorgeous neo prints now, you hv changed alot (i saw you change. heh) all our lies and everyth we did and laughed forever at foodcourt. i wldnt forget, i will probably see you in tamil class but that means for 2periods, which i wld obv pass notes(: heh.

9. candice.vivien.estee.

candice- thanks for always always replying to my msges when i need yr help in any subjet. you were nv ever selfish, always willing to part yr knowledge to make others elated. iloveyouso!
vivien- hahas. i dunt know, but you were just always perfect. im not the only one saying this. "vivien's the closest thing to perfect"-quoted.
estee- you too always helped me with math, you knew i was one hellava noisy bitchh, but you didnt care. i respect you that you wanted to study and do well! thanks&LOVES!

10. JASON!

one of the great partners aft huaiyi! all those times i laughed and laughed with you and did the ever so lame things. erk, unforgettable! the times we cheated tchers and did our handsigns. oh i wldnt forget. you were one of the few un-annoying cheena boy i liked(:

to all those i was realllly close with even though you werent in my class, like my indiangirls&pretty boy-friends. THANKS for the awesomeeeeeeeeeee sec2! its hello sec3 now and i hope those who werent in my class then will be next yearr(=

i fucking miss my people.

i was spossed to be a doll, but as you hv seen i didnt manage to achieve the look, cos i was in a super BIG rush. and begum's place was abit dark so the photos turned out abit crappish =[
but it was this cuute little thing where everyone knew almost everyone. it was just a giggling, lotsa happiness&swooning(: the TYPICAL(:
everyone looked hot, except for some of the boys, but the best look was achieved by jays. she LOOKED HELL HOT&EMO-HALLOWEEN-FIED! dunt wanna post the pic of her here, its abit wierd =[

it was one superr exhausting day, i left with kavi at arnd 10 while the rest stayed for socccer. rawr. i want soccer =[ once more! in the rrain(:

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im sick and im crying. wth combination is that? :( oh gosh, combination this monday.

-CURSES!

oh wait, thanks alot karim for playing loosue pennae, makes me feel alot better, oh ryttttttttttttttttttttttttttttte;

i want you right by my side baby,
why dunt things last forever.
alll of memories of gratification;
why doesnt it be everlasting?

=[

5:01 AM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 »

once again, time plays games with me. im either uber tired and drowning on prictons/panadols or im just way to busy to put my mind to pensive. i desperately need to find time to let my thoughts flow, "..too many thoughts in one's brain can cos an adversity" well said. but since i need to rush to jared's house to catch a movie, i'll just post pictures. havent they said. "..a picture means a thousand words?" BUT 01106 was a brilliant day which makes me cry, (despite the fact that im f*****g sick thanks to it&hv scars all over my body thanks to the insects in the sea)
i LOVE ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CAME SO BIG ENORMOUS TRUCK LOADS. KAVITA.MINDEE.JEROME.JARED.SHAL.SHAM.JASPER(:
shan, wish you were right there with us :(

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im sorry, i didnt get to wish chrizzeh through my blog, but i hope sunday made her happy(: i will go out with my darlings from act3 soon, its just i havent made the phone to conference with all yet. its been maya i last talked to for long. so sorry :(

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9:06 PM