one weeeeek has passed again,

i have so many things to say yet my brain is bubbling and frothing.
my lungs released air to let me speaaak but i just can't put my tongue to my teeth.
once again, the fear strikes through me. i can't stem it at its bud.

i can't, i can't,i can't.

1. have to revise througgh chem AGAIN, -15days or so.
2. do bio chapter 2&7-10days or so.
3. practice my ADDITIONAL&e math :( -17days or so.

the ecstacy that will run through my veins after MYE is irreplacable,
i need the opportunity to loosenn up, so for now i should just push myself.

I WILL,I WILL,I WILL try.

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sometimes you pine for something so hard,
and the results you're awaiting for procastinates.
although when it comes, the mirth in you will never be replaced.
slowly, this feeling dawns in you that you wanna be the BEST of the BEST.
so you pray and pray, but then despitee all that.
you still don't achieve what you aimed for, its like a cold blade
slitting through your pulpitating heart and blood rushes to every inch of your body.

-- i should'nt be complaining, i would'nt be complaining. but yet i am. cos to be honest im not satisfied with 18th posistion :( out of the 280students who took part in b div :(
i just am not, RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWRR! :(

on the other hand, my 2.4(: i hit my target babeh, 16solid minutes. i dont care what others think, for me its a record breaking timing and im so freaking happy! (:
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riiiighht, i should hit the sacs.




NIGGGGGGGGGGHT and LOVES (:

happy birthday sweetie*(:

-i've collaged all the photos of us together, cos i didnt wanna let my compuuter screw on me after i upload our gazillion photos, haha! anyway, im gladd you had fun yestd. and i'm sure with us around yoou always will okay? because ILOVEYOU. and you know that too. there are super lotsa things you've helped mee with, and im glad you've always been there, i'll always be here for yoou too. just remind yourself, that saturday is your secret getaway that no-one else shares? cos, even when i leave act3 i'm always a call away! (: unless im stuudying ugh :( i dont know if i'll ever make you cupcakes again but the day was a blaast for you im guessing so yay!


maya, this has to be in tamil, or the sarcasm won't be there_
foursome ah? aval maail yenaku antha varupu still irukirathu, avalodai "love" messages
super super demnnn faaaaake la. addddddddathuu thuuuu! okay wtv HAHAHA.



anyway. hope all your wishes and dreams come through dearest (:




XOXO.

the guardian angel!

the pinnacle of 40hours of training : 12th april 11.20 am at acs baker theatre.
infront of 3secondary school and 4judges.
the laborious feat of BECOMING our characters realistically, sacrificing time, getting drilled by GEE.fang, pushing&carrying the props to the room. the everything we did. OVER, KAPOOSH.(this word is in the dictonary i heard) wow. i can't express how i feel entirely.
not that i lack the vocabulary but more like if i tried it would be an insult to my jumbled up hormones. gosh, from the















































"you&Bubbles were excellent",
"top-notch-acting dear",
" you ended the show&walked out in character", "
be proud of your cast and yourself "
-im gathering we brought pride and glamour to unity, i hope atleast. no pretense(In that)

deep down inside, my heart pinnes for the gold but i forsee that would only be achieved if we were 200% IN CHARACTER AND WHAATNOT. yet again, i think i should'nt expect the best out of everything because as a cast we were aiming for silver. to be very candid about the whole performance, i hardly felt that we were at the silver-ish standard. we were dangling impotently at the bronze level to my extreme dispair. there was something about the performance that didn't kick the soil into the judges eyes and tell them straight to their faces, "WE DESERVE IT!"
personallly, i didn't put up the version i had in my head. my tears fell in minimal, my emotions were there, but not at optimum. which is precisely why, i bursts out in tears after the performance. my heart was tingling in sheer terror.

kudos to the entire cast for trying their best, and pulling off whatever we could. no matter what the results, i say this heartfully that we will get what we deserve (: i loveyou all. and it'll always be extreme gratification when im with yoou ppl (: (inclusive of b.s crw)

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god, 14days to MYE. now i should say bye to the world and study.


righhtttt,

i should'nt be complaining i should just put in my effort(:


i'm gonna somehow only fail 2 subjects and get b3 and above for the rest! (:


somehow, let me sound gay its fine.






XOXO ME!*



-maya (: im sorry.
-boooon zhong, sorry too! be happy. we loveyou!